Today has been a rough one, not on the information front (we don't have anything new) but the mama bear front.. Georgia literally cries every time she sees nurses or doctors. First thing this morning was a blood draw, her IV was shot so they took it out and attempted unsuccessfully FOUR times to get a new one in. I read recently that at Georgia's age she understands communication mostly through tone so I am focused on keeping a calm tone while watching these people hold her down and poke her with needles when all I want to do.. all I have wanted to do since we arrived is wrap her up and RUN out of here. I know this is an amazing hospital with world class doctors and nurses, I know we are lucky to live here and be able to get the kind of care that people travel far and wide from to get but it really doesn't feel that way.
Every morning I wake up and think.. how are we here.. this is not my life, not her life.. I did my cancer "stint" with my mom and think that I more than filled my quota. Regardless of that I will be here every second with Georgia because although Brian and I are going through this with her we aren't the ones who are examined, poked and uncomfortable. Georgia is my heart, soul and everything in between.
Thank you for sending emails and facebook posts.. today when I thought I might lose my mind I was able to get on the computer and read such kind words from so many people who care about and are praying for our girl