Sunday, May 20, 2012

Georgia 2.5

Jody is a good friend, one I met just a few weeks into my freshman year of college.  She is the kind of friend that I can go weeks even months without talking and the instant we reconnect it's like no time has passed.  She has been a strong supporter from the moment this journey began, somehow there was always an email or text message with just the right words coming at just the right time.  I would be in a moment where I didn't think I could take anything else and a message would come through simply saying, "Winston Churchill, When you're going through hell keep going."  This friend of mine means so much to me.
Yesterday afternoon I'd posted Georgia's 2 1/2 year old video here and on Facebook, by that evening Jody had sent an email, this is what it said....

Good evening, my friend!  I was so excited when I saw your FB post today about Georgia turning 2.5. she has got to be the happiest, smartest, most well-adjusted 2.5 year old on earth. How the hell does that happen?  Answer:  good parenting.

Anyway, got me thinking how far you all have come and felt extremely inspired just reminiscing about your journey and where you are right now at this very moment.  What a beautiful child you have and amazing family.   

I made a movie in your honor today...


Thank you my wonderful friend, you have again sent something special to me .  We love the video and I love you! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gIlMLAzyacI&feature=youtu.be

Saturday, May 19, 2012

2.5 and 16 Months!

Today you are 2 1/2 and 16 months post transplant Georgia!  This morning I thought about where we were 16 months ago and was instantly fighting back tears, then I looked at you and smiled.  You are so full of life, happy and thriving.  You are also full of words, here are a few of my favorites:

I bumped your finger on accident and you said "mama, finger... love you so much no!"

When you don't like something that I'm doing you're quick to respond, "stop do-ning (doing) that!"

When we ask you where you live you always say "Peace Jungle" we have no idea where it came from but it sounds like a lovely place.

When you hear the coffee maker beep in the morning you say "mama, coffee ready for you!"

You love to point out motorcycles and when I ask you what mama says about Georgia riding a motorcycle you laugh and say "no way, dangerous!"

I asked you the other day what you were doing, you replied, "nofing citing" (nothing exciting)

Lately when I tell you what were going to do next, ie: eat lunch, go outside, go to the store, you respond with "good plan."

You still love clothes and continue to change your clothes multiple times a day.  You get such a kick out of picking out each item and putting it on by yourself.  I often see socks and sandals, rain boots and a sun hat and always lots of color.

You are my neat and tidy girl, you are always asking for a napkin when you eat and don't like having a "messy face" as you call it.  You are helpful in putting away your toys and laundry.  A few weeks ago I thought you'd have fun finger painting, about two minutes in you lifted up your hands and in a somewhat stressed voice said, "mama, messy hands."  I do think our need for keeping you as germ free as possible contributes to this but I am seeing more and more signs that this is also just in your nature... now if I could only get you to let me brush your hair.

I love you my girl, I couldn't be more proud.

video

Friday, May 18, 2012

Soul

I know I'll never understand why Georgia had to have cancer and I've stopped searching for that answer.  Throughout the last 18 months I've seen so many tragic stories and have often asked, why?  I have made an effort to stop asking questions but several weeks ago I learned something and literally said aloud, "you've got to be kidding me."
Lynette Johnson is an incredible woman who founded the non-profit organization, Soulumination.  She has worked hard to grow this organization that takes photos of children in life threatening situations or are terminally ill, she wants to give families something to hold on to.  We were lucky enough to have Lynette capture some pictures that I treasure.  Soulumination is here because of Lynette, the  photographers that she has brought together have the ability to come into the lives of people, sick people, scared people and capture moments that are so pure and true.  
Lynette is this creative life force, you feel different when you're around her - she's something special.  Several weeks ago I saw a post on Facebook that took me to Lynette's Blog on the Soulumination website, Lynette had just been diagnosed with lymphoma.  What is so incredible about her is that since that initial post where she talked about literally hanging up on her doctor and going to kick something, Lynette has posted pictures in various masks and super hero costumes stating "we need to have a lot more fun with cancer than is expected."  Earlier this week she posted, "okay guess it time to gather my weapons, put on the big girl undies and boots and let her rip, chemo here we come, a little kicking and screaming, a bit of calm as I know I have love on my side and a touch of spunk..."
Please keep Lynette in your prayers, she started chemotherapy today and is sure to show lymphoma whose boss! 

The day Lynette was diagnosed the thing she said would lift her spirits was if she could get 1,000 "Likes" for Soulumination on Facebook, she achieved that goal but if you're on Facebook please keep it going.  Here is a link to Lynette's blog and the Soulumination website, it really is an incredible organization, please consider donating.


http://www.soulumination.org/index.php/site/entry/i-get-by-with-a-little-help-from-my-friends

Park, Purell and a style all your own

Georgia you are at such a fun age right now, becoming more independent and self sufficient and loving a little more freedom.  The other day after you woke up from you nap we decided to take a trip to the park.  In true fashion, you wanted to change your clothes, you picked out every single item and put each one on yourself.  When you picked out sandals to wear I assured you that you didn't need to wear socks too but you insisted.  I asked if you wanted a clip or rubber band to keep your hair out of your eyes (a new thrill of ours!) and you decided on a headband that you promptly put on yourself.  After putting your shoes on you stood up, looking proud and said "ready!"  On the drive down you asked if the slide was broken (aka too many kids at the playground) and I said we'd have to see when we got there.  We arrived and much to my delight the playground was nearly empty.  You walked up to the steps leading to the slide, grabbed my hand and slid down, at the bottom you asked if you could get off on your belly, sure, I said.  The next trip up to the slide you asked if you could hold onto the railings (something we try to avoid because all of the other runny nose kids touch them) my heart sank a little because you are so compliant with all of the restrictions put on you.  Knowing I had plenty of Purell I said to go ahead. 
I love the confidence I see in you and so appreciate that we can communicate about the special care we need to take in certain situations.  We're working on it Georgia, soon the slide will never be broken and although I'm sure I'll always have Purell, maybe we'll leave it in the car. 



Sunday, May 13, 2012

Happy Mother's Day

Dear Georgia,
Today I get to celebrate being a mom because of you.  I am one of those people whose known her whole life I've wanted to be a mom, growing up I was indecisive about a lot of things but never about desire to be a mom. 
Someday if you choose to have children you'll understand the way I love you, it's impossible to fully grasp until that day arrives.  All of the cliches are true, I love you so much it hurts and there are times when I think I could literally eat you up! 
I am so proud of you and who you are becoming, you are caring and kind, have strong opinions, love to laugh and you've got a style all your own! 
I am fortunate to have had an incredible role model, grandma Claudia taught me so much, helping me to figure out who I wanted to be, what things really matter in life and she always gave the most unconditional love.  I can't promise to be perfect, but hope I can be to you what she was to me.  I know that I got more from her in 19 years than some get in a lifetime.
There will be times when I think I've run out of patience or you think I am the worst thing that's ever happened but know that I love you my girl, every minute of everyday.  My first wish for you will always be health but beyond that I want you to be happy, whatever that means to you.  I will be here to help you achieve your goals, be an ear to listen and to help you gain focus when the world doesn't seem fair.  I will love you no matter what.  I feel so lucky to have you has my daughter Georgia, I love you so much.

Love,
Mom


Saturday, May 12, 2012

Luau!

Today was absolutely beautiful in Seattle, the perfect day for Lauren's luau birthday party!  Thanks to Auntie Leslie for keeping the party small so "GG" could attend, she had a blast!  Happy birthday Lauren, we love you sweet girl.

 Double Trouble

 Grammy & Georgia

 Blake & Lauren

 The birthday girl

Thursday, May 10, 2012

TWO!

Happy second birthday to the sweetest niece an auntie could ask for. You're mama and I can't wait to see you and Georgia grow up together, with just under six months between you, I think you'll both give us a run for our money!   We love you so much Lauren!