This day certainly didn't go the way I thought it would. This morning I woke up and was able to sneak out of bed without waking Georgia, I got us ready to go and was waiting until the last moment to flush her line and get her dressed. She'd been a little restless through the night and thought to myself, wow, she must be really tired as I saw that it was past 11:30am. I finally woke up a very cranky girl, flushed her line and went to change her diaper... typically Georgia takes a little warming up in the morning but she seemed extra cranky. Within minutes we were in the car on the way to Children's.. I looked back at her, she wasn't perking up the way she usually does, she looked tired... she looked like she didn't feel well. When the nurse took us back to the procedure room I told her almost immediately that Georgia wasn't herself, and that she felt warm. She took her temperature, no fever. We met with the anesthesiologist, he was concerned that she wasn't herself, he took a good look and listen and talked with the gastrointerologist - they decided to call the attending at the SCCA to discuss. It was decided that since this procedure wasn't an immediate need, Georgia's breathing was a bit labored and that her heart rate was high we'd put this off. Before leaving Children's we got a chest xray and headed to the SCCA to see what was going on.
At the SCCA we saw the nurse and physicians assistant, both who know Georgia well - they agreed that she wasn't herself and now she had a low grade fever of 99. They sent us down to the infusion floor where Georgia was to get a fluid bolus and labs drawn. By the time we got down there and were settled in Georgia had a fever of 102. The nurse practitioner came down and said they had a bed ready for us at Children's.
So here I sit, Georgia asleep next to me, settled down after getting some Tylenol at last check her fever was 104.7 and she feels lousy. Out of the hospital just over a week I feel like I've failed her. It's my job to keep her safe and healthy - I know given her fragile immune system this is more than one human can be responsible for but as a mom it's hard not to take on that responsibility.
Alison I am so sorry . . . but please know that this is not your fault. You do everything in your power to keep G happy and healthy. Praying and sending positive thoughts to G!
ReplyDeleteAlison, keep your head up! You are not responsible for her fever. You have been such an amazing full time mother and caregiver. She is so lucky to have you. We will be sending you cool and health thoughts from our house!!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing mom, knowing that she wasn't herself immediately, bringing it to the attention of the dr's and getting her where she needs to be (unfortunately the hospital) makes you a champion of Georgia and doing the absolutle best by her!! Don't ever question how remarkable and wonderful you are. Hang in there and know there is lots of love, strength and prayers going out to you guys.
ReplyDeleteI STRONGLY agree with Kelly, you are amazing and you did realize something was not right with little "G" Also there are a lot of love strength and prayers going out to you guys. You are doing a great job Alison, stay the course and dont question or doubt your moves!!
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